Guru the destroyer

Sri Sadgurubhyoh Namaha

Guru destroys everything.
You have taken away all support systems for my ego like (dependence on god, guru) to fall back upon, to be shielded when the going gets tough. The concept of god that I had was destroyed. So, I couldnt invoke god when I was in trouble. And you show no miracles, and mysticism, so there too I cannot rely on invoking your grace to
support me. All I had was my stupid ego , that took everything too seriously and suffered.
I had a good laugh today morning, from my house to office.
I met Geetamma, and was touched by her faith in her Guru, and her bhakti. She has shown me the path of bhakti. I understood the missing piece in my heart. Earlier, I was thinking person, then I understood the power of bhakti/devotion. It is a soothing effect on a person, and all the difficulties in life can be put on God/Guru to bear. This doesnt mean that I will be like a parasite on god. God is the doer, enjoyer, and thinker. I can take it easy. I need not think complex vedantic truths. Bhakti that I understood is that of having compassion. I learnt how to feed a hungry person. Not because of I will get punya, but just because that person is hungry. I also learnt,
to treat people equally. earlier I had a feeling that I know something. Now , I know that I know nothing. I got the samadhana that Guru will take care of me. Earlier, I have caught hold of your feet intellectually, clarifying my doubts. But now, I know that Guru works unseen. and Guru is protecting me. Guru showers grace on me. I need
not think or fear of anything. 
In earlier days, Guru used to send his students to other Gurus also to clarify somethings in students minds. That is exactly what you have done. That is the feeling I got. I got the lesson in bhakti from her. I will try to do Annadana to the hungry, whenever I can. I will do Nama sankirtana of God/Guru.

In Guruseva,
Atmajyothi