About hurt

Sri Sadgurubhyoh Namah

Dear Guruji,

Life is continuous kicks, but still mind doesnt learn. It is not indiscriminate kicking. It is interspersed with few good moments. Is it the goal to turn away from life ? if that is the case, it can be easily achieved. But I am not able to understand what lesson I have to learn. Why cant I be left alone ? Why does shakti has to disturb me ? 

There is only one lesson to be learnt. Understanding the ego till it drops. The various variants of ego, and the associated disturbances in mind. Observing the mind, will remove the hurt, but why the hurt in first place ? Why should I be bothered and expected to observe my mind ? Why throw a stone in mud and then wash ? I have not hurt anybody intentionally in the recent times as far as I remember, then why people have to hurt me ?

Am I being over sensitive ? I usually dont reply back to people due to whatever reason, and this leaves a mark in the mind. People have taken advantage due to this nature of mine and said whatever they wanted to. I dont feel replying back because I dont want to talk to such people. But there is no stopping of such people. I know how to get rid of my hurt. A simple observation of mind will remove the hurt in the heart. But I want to understand why this game of mind and life. Where is the end. If we apply this principle to various situations as and when they arise, it is ok. But what is the key to apply this once and for all ?

Hari Om

I meditated and got the answer,

Dear Guruji,

I understood one aspect of 'identification with body', and how it affects me.

I am pure consciousness. In reality I am separate from body, but I think that I am the body, and I identify with the body. Whatever happens to the body, whatever is said to the body, I take it as if it has happened to me and it is said to me.

If somebody says good things about my body, I feel elated.

If somebody says bad things about my body, I feel dejected.

A slight change in perception is needed to get out of this rut. I need to be an observer and see what is happening in and around including the body+mind called myself.

It is the false identification with the body that is cause of this roller-coaster ride.

I understood the miracle of witness consciousness.

Hari OM