Worries and fears

Sri Sadgurubhyoh Namah
Apr-6-2012

Dear Prabhu,

 

All worries and fears are related to self-preservation of body, mind and intellect. Job security, food security, self-defence is what matters when an identification takes place with body and subsequently one tries to preserve body.

The feeling that I am not body, mind and intellect is elusive. There is no proof evident to the ego in waking state that awareness also will last forever. The waking ego wants ever lasting happiness. This waking ego gets dissolved in dream state and deep sleep state. The self-preservation is not so prominent in dream and deep sleep. we dont hoard money/food in these two states. It is only the waking state that we hoard money/food for tomorrow. No ordinary person likes bodily discomfort / mental agony, and a stithaprajna can bear bodily discomfort and mental agony.

I hold on to the body-consciousness due to lack of alternative.

Awareness practice, meditation etc can give a glimpse of dis-association with body to some extent. But body consciousness will be there , but lessened. This retention of body consciousness again leads to worry about future security. I may practice awareness for few moments, then I forget and fall back into body-consciousness (This is not bothering me much, but key to all-awareness is missing).  How to come out of this cycle ?

I have to make a choice of being in awareness. Once and for all I have to make a firm resolve that 'I will practice awareness all moments'.

A careful , wakeful, awareness has to be practiced with a firm resolve.

In guruseva

Atmajyoti