Being selfish vs Being unselfish

Sri Sadgurubhyoh Namah

May-23-2012

I am taking a resolution to avoid taking action on selfish thoughts. For every actionable thought that comes to me, I will evaluate it whether it is 'selfish' or for a large cause, and take action if it is  for larger cause, and I wont take action if it is selfish thought. Also, I will not entertain selfish thoughts. I will maintain awareness and nip those thoughts in bud.

My definition of selfish thoughts : Thoughts which generate fear, anger, greed, lust, and unpleasant feeling at heart center. Thoughts that generate sense of limited 'i'.

My definition of unselfish thoughts : Any thought that expands consciousness limits. Thoughts which generate pleasant feeling at heart center.

When I entertain thoughts related to 'I me mine', I also undergo suffering. Earlier I used to cling to selfish thoughts thinking that if I dont think about myself , who will ?

Yesterday I analysed this and came to conclusion that I am in safe hands (Your hands a.k.a. Universal benevolent being), I need not think about preserving myself. No need of fear of survival.

If I engage in unselfish actions, Universe will take care of me. There is no individual 'i' if only unselfish thoughts are there, thereby proving 'anatta' concept of buddhism. Universe is working for itself. I need to go with flow. Let go of everything including sense of 'i' and take refuge in God the higher self.

My family, work, my definition of self, my definition of non-self all these are transient. I need to be aware and engage in unselfish acts wherever possible. 

Usually there is a mode in which I operate (unconscious/sub conscious minds). Actions done with conscious aware mind is almost negligible. I was able to see this also. When I forget my center of gravity, outgoing mind will pull and I am acting in unawareness. When I remember this and pull mind back to center, I am aware. Practice of awareness is correctly described as 'walking on a razors edge', it can be lost or it can be maintained. There is a subtle difference between aware mind and unaware mind.

In guruseva

Atmajyoti